you want an ice i'll make you freeze

i have this one stupid feeling.
i don't know how to reveal this feeling.
ok,
i'm-addicted-with-someone-but-i-let-him-go
stupid right?
i mean, why you have to let someone that you love go away from your life?
i guess its the same reason for why you love someone too.
there's no concrete reason for any of that
or just say, "i don't know why"

the only thing that i couldn't control myself is every time i look at him.
only god know how fast my heart beats every time.
i get so excited about him.
but he never know that.

life is unfair nini. deal with it. and my love life suck. thank you god.


"What I was isn't what I am
I'd change back but I don't know if I can
Still I'll try, try again, try again
Baby I die every night, every time
But I was made the way I am
I'm not a stone
Lay down your arms
and I will lay down mine
Rip back the time that we've been wasting
God I wish you could see me now
You'd pick me up and you'd sort me out"

4 comments:

naie naze said...

nini, fight ur way back.no matter what the ending will be,make sure there will be no regret and grief.fight, and try to win(dun fight in a bad way,i mean,fight to win him back whatever it takes, if u know deep down he's always with u), that's what love is all about.

p/s:i always fight, even when it hurts me to see him hurted by me, bcz i know i'll regret my whole life if i let him go.

k u c e m said...

wow naie, thats so meaningful.
haha. thank you so much. :)

Anonymous said...

agreed to naze.
fight conciously,
it will get worse otherwise.

u just have to bare with it.
truth not always sweet,
lies sometimes bitter.
just smile no matter what happens.

and god loves everyone,
yes i mean u and me :)

k u c e m said...

err, thank you mr/mrs anonymous =/